If you have read this blog for any time
at all, you will know who Kim is. Kim is a free spirit from Key West, Florida.
She blew in here on a breeze one day, and came and went a few times, and
stayed for a good long time, and made many good things possible. (including Rosie Dog, the design of this blog, the cover of the Moorish Whore, even our business cards.)
The critters love her. She is like a
sister to me. Paddy, who does not come easy to sweetness, says Kim is
"the daughter I never had."
We have not seen Kim for a few months.
She is out there somewhere on the trail, and once in a while I see a
blog post or a Facebook update that hints at which backwater she´s
exploring. I can tell she is nearer now than she was before. So maybe
she will show up again soon, and all the dogs will rejoice, and Murphy
will snuggle up against her and purr. (Momo will probably climb up her
pantleg, needling her legs with his tiny claws, and make her scream.)
Kim´s latest gift to us is a blog entry.
I have exerpted the Peaceable part here. You can see the rest of her
mystic journey at http://soulfulroad.worpress.com.
Rosie loves Kim best of anyone |
before you can travel the path, you must first become the path itself. – the buddha
it would be by the side of the ancient
pilgrim’s trail in an ochre colored house that the camino requested my
presence and attention. instead of making my way as a pilgrim, i was
asked to stay still by the side of the road for a while. to learn to become the path.
and to let the world come to me. the peaceable kingdom sits just about
halfway or so between st. jean pied-de-port (one of the main jumping in
points for the camino frances just over the border into france) and
finisterra. there, in the middle of the spanish meseta, where the
infinitude of a ‘big sky’ can make any good pilgrim a little wild of
mind, is the small village of moratinos. this funny little pueblo is
where i would come to spend many a moon smoothing out some of my rough
edges and maybe gaining a few where i was much too soft.
just off of the calle ontanon is a
private home (known as the peaceable) that is generously open to
wanderers of all kinds. the place has grown organically in these past
four years from the dream of american writer rebekah scott and her
husband, artist and englishman patrick o’gara. it seems that the camino
chose them to put down their roots in this small village of crumbling
houses made from earth, with its 14 or so inhabitants that range from
kind to curious. it hasn’t been easy for reb and paddy. from the
beginning, they have been tested and tried and asked by the camino more
than once if they really meant it and were committed to being there …
and then stretched just a little bit more for good measure. (you can
read more about their story by clicking on the three-legged una dog in
the sidebar on the right)
and so, through the cold winter, into the
deep red poppy bloom of spring and maybe just a bit longer, i became
part of a strange tribe. a place where the existence of god is debated
daily and the presence is felt even more often. mice are chased, wine is
had, prayers are layed down and each day brings something or someone
new. change is constant and flows over a foundation that has grown
strong and sturdy. and it was here within these walls that i got down to
some gritty soul work. i had the opportunity and privilege to care for
pilgrims from all over the world—some blistered, broken hearted or
mixture of both. i became hospitalera to the hospitaleros. had great
adventures with wild dogs (and a handsome cat) all with the oldest of
souls. i ran in the fields under skies as wide and blue as the sea that
had i left behind. i chopped wood, carried water. cleaned out coops,
shoveled poop. discovered the zen of dishwashing, learned to love
european football, enjoyed good meals and became famous for salads and
soulful stones. i tended the small but mighty labyrinth, wrestled my
ego, felt grouchy sometimes. expressed it. was loved anyways. held space
for healing and had space held for me. and it happened there, in
through the cracks of everyday living and being, that the deepest of
daily lessons seeped in —the ones about love, forgiveness, acceptance,
compassion, boundaries, kindness, receiving, giving, humility … and a
much needed clarity of the difference between service and servitude.
this subtle grace shimmered a fine light into the dusty corners of my
soul and it was in this space that i practiced ‘the leaning in’. leaning
in for a deeper understanding. for truth, without attachment or
aversion. to be near and listen from the heart. to come to a simple
knowing that we are all on our own spiritual journey, without exception.
that we all want to be loved, to be understood, to be heard, to be seen
and to know that we have the right exist. we each have our own unique
story filled with dreams and longing, failures and disappointments. and
no one’s is less important than the other’s. we have all known, at some
time in our lives what it is like to suffer. we all want to be free of
suffering. we want the freedom to be who we truly are. and through this
practice of learning to see with the eyes of the heart and to stand in
the stillness of a place of knowing the truth of who i really am and who
i am becoming, i am beginning to understand that each time i lean in to
others, i am also leaning in towards myself. thanks Peace (with all of
your people, creatures, pilgrims and wanderers) for your mysterious
spirit that has provided me with the time and space to learn about
becoming the path.
2 comments:
sing it sistah....love, k
you are close, kimster....
Shimmer back soon, Kimster.
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